Well, she didn’t reach out to me to say Happy Birthday, which felt like a good thing and a bad thing at the same time. Then two days later I just ran into her, the first I’ve seen her since she broke up with me two months ago. I am so shaken up right now.
We live in a resort town and there was a party event going on all weekend. After work I went over to check it out with a couple of buddies. We were drinking beers when I saw her walking by and it looked like she was working the event (she was dressed in a cute outfit and had her hair down) When she saw me she looked shocked, quickly said Happy Birthday, but didn’t stop walking and went into the doorway of the building we were standing against. It happened so fast and I think we were both so surprised to see each other that I barely was able to mumble thanks. She didn’t smile at me and kind of looked down after she saw me, it was so uncomfortable. I can’t believe that this is the same person I did everything with for the last two and a half years, and not even 5 months ago we were on a romantic vacation together.
I knew I would see her eventually as we live in a small place but didn’t think it would be that night as I had just gotten to start celebrating my bday with friends. Over their protests, I needed to leave as I knew I would be seeing her all night and I wouldn’t be able to handle it. I feel so bad right now and all the progress I have made the last few weeks to get her off my mind is gone… My mind is spinning right now and don’t even know how to begin to process what I am feeling..