Painfully Consumed By One Man

It’s quite astounding to me that I still have a house, job, children, heat… given that I’ve been so completely consumed by this man who has completely distanced himself from me and lied for all of the five years we were together. Oh, I knew it all along but I kept second-guessing myself. What if he really WAS the one and I was just cheating myself out of happiness?

To this day, I still think he could be the one. And would you believe I say this as he cheated on me consistently? . I feel for him because I know he is a sad and lonely man and will always be that way. But I need to feel for myself. I do not deserve to be sad and lonely for all time.