Its been three years since my breakup- wow – Three Years- it blows my mind… where it all started, where it ended. Where I am now.
I wont bore you with the details of the what where and how…
I for one never thought after 5 years of sharing a life with someone – that one day I would wake up and find myself -devastated -lost- and alone , starting over – but I did.
I guess in some small way I should “thank him.” I wouldn’t be who I am, or where I am today.
Life lessons, though at times extremely painful, teach us so much.
what I learned…..
1-some people–no matter how much we give and want them to give too, are not capable of giving us what we need or want…
2-to be able to fully heal we have to feel – there is no way around it .
3-we are not defined by someone else, we cant allow ourselves to get lost, to forget who we are, just to please someone else .. It was very difficult for me to remember who I was after the breakup- it took great effort to discover me again- but I did! 🙂
4-Being Comfortable does not mean we are Happy- learned this lesson the hard way!
5- There may be no such thing as fully healed but that doesn’t mean healing hasn’t taken place.
What do I mean by that?
I can smile when old memories surface
I don’t have a full blown panic attack when I come across a picture anymore.
I don’t miss him or in anyway want him back
I still have moments where I am taking back to that time – once in awhile I think about where I would be if it turned out differently, then I remember the struggle that it took to get where I am today-
I have come so far – I am happy with ME- its Ok to be OK.
We can do it- we are strong- takes time but we all get there ..
Thank YOU all for being a part of my journey- my friends